SELF DESTRUCTION

Self destruction is usually defined as self-punishing, guilt-purging. Some people are pessimists and have negative energy and negativistic attitudes, maybe including me.

My self-destruction maybe represents a dysfunction my fundamental relationship with life. Fundamental. What is that ? What is my fundamental ? Ask your self :) 

There is something missing from my life. Missing mean I don’t have any hopes, I don’t have any chance for something I want.

I have problem with deliberate physical self-injury. But injury doesn’t mean suicide for me, it’s about doing wrong thing in my life. Driving crazy, don’t care everything, eating disorder.

I’m being unable to control my emotions. So help me.

Moreover, “There is something about me” which make me more stable and calm. I didn’t know, why self-destruction is better than I rebuild my soul.

And, is it true that self destruction is one of my problem solving ?